The cold is much colder,
And I feel much older;
Not hanging mistletoe,
My Christmas spirit's low.
Those lines are from my newest recording, "Christmas Lonely." Give it a listen if you haven't already, and pass it around if you like it. It would be nice to have people actually listening to my music. Yes, it's kinda sad, but then so am I. Still, I think I managed to keep the tone of the music from sounding too down...
The last few weeks have been difficult to take. Gina, the love of my life and the woman I'd fully expected to marry, has abandoned me. Mahj, an especially intelligent co-worker I'd expected to stick around for at least another year or two, has found a better job and abandoned me. And starting in 2006, Jon, the roommate and friend I'd expected to co-habitate with for at least another year or two, is getting an apartment with his girlfriend, Karin, abandoning me.
OK, it's probably not quite accurate or fair to describe their actions in terms of abandoning me, but it does kinda feel that way, and it's just been one blow after another. I miss Gina and Hannah terribly; I'll miss Mahj, and work is going to be so much harder without her able assistance; and I'll miss both Jon and his half of the bill payments. Heh. Yes, I could probably get another roommate, but I don't think I really want to get used to living with someone else, only to see him/her take off on me down the road, too. Besides, it'll be nice to have a bit more space in which to spread my stuff around, and never have to worry about the bathroom or the kitchen or the phone line being occupied. It's been a long time since I've lived alone, and while I'm feeling a bit low about myself and my life right now, maybe the loneliness will do me good.
The twelve-string has done me good, I think. I really love this guitar (which I've named Gina, by the way; sappy, I know, but...), and I've been playing it a lot lately, to the point where the fingertips of my right hand are very much calloused. "Christmas Lonely" was recorded using the twelve-string, and I think it's given the song a nice, full sound. I recently also got some new loops and instruments for GarageBand and the Ozonic (the sleigh bells on "Christmas Lonely" came from there), and I'm hoping to finish the "Hate Theme from 'Waiting for X'" before the year is over, and maybe another track or two.
Apparently, no one I know is using Google Talk. But if you are, do feel free to add rockstarandy to your list. I log on every once in a while, to see if anyone's there. I've been spending a bit more time on MySpace lately, and bumped into some old friends, as well as making some new ones. Jill Zutty is a talented singer/songwriter in the Princeton area, and we've talked about the possibility of working on some music together. Angella Ashton is an interesting young actress and model in New York. And Joe Havasy is, well, not the Joe Havasy from Clifton that Jon and I know, but a painter and illustrator in Athens, GA who came across his name on my overlooked Most Wanted Terrorists list. Hmmm, I don't think the feds have caught a single one of 'em yet... Speaking of which, what's the deal with the US claiming, in response to the uproar over alleged secret prisons overseas, that we've not violated "US law?" There is such a thing as international law. Maybe the Bushies should just pull out of the United Nations, disavow any and all international agreements onto which the United States has signed, and enact a strict isolationist policy. After all, the US is the only superpower in the world, and we can do whatever we want, and we don't need anybody else, right? "We don't have to play by your rules, man." How old are these kids again?
If you tire of playing by Microsoft's rules, then download Firefox if you haven't already done so. I generally use Safari on the PowerBook, but I keep Firefox (and Mozilla, and Opera, and Konqueror) around, too; on the PeeCee end of things, though, I definitely prefer Firefox. If you're going to insist on IE, then don't complain about viruses and spyware...
I met my nephew, Shawn, last month. My parents and I went to the christening, and my sister and her family came to my parents' for Thanksgiving. He is a cute lil' kid, though he seemed much more interested in his bottle than in my guitar. Ah, well, I guess there's plenty of time for that.
Well, back to work. The office has been rough enough for the past few weeks with
Mahjabeen here; I shudder to think what next week will be like, without her. Anyone want to do technical
support for NDCHealth products?
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