Being...
the adventures of a youngish man whose principal interests are knowledge, beauty, and music

© 2005 by Andersen Silva (12-1-05)

The cold is much colder,
  And I feel much older;
Not hanging mistletoe,
  My Christmas spirit's low.

Those lines are from my newest recording, "Christmas Lonely." Give it a listen if you haven't already, and pass it around if you like it. It would be nice to have people actually listening to my music. Yes, it's kinda sad, but then so am I. Still, I think I managed to keep the tone of the music from sounding too down...

The last few weeks have been difficult to take. Gina, the love of my life and the woman I'd fully expected to marry, has abandoned me. Mahj, an especially intelligent co-worker I'd expected to stick around for at least another year or two, has found a better job and abandoned me. And starting in 2006, Jon, the roommate and friend I'd expected to co-habitate with for at least another year or two, is getting an apartment with his girlfriend, Karin, abandoning me.

OK, it's probably not quite accurate or fair to describe their actions in terms of abandoning me, but it does kinda feel that way, and it's just been one blow after another. I miss Gina and Hannah terribly; I'll miss Mahj, and work is going to be so much harder without her able assistance; and I'll miss both Jon and his half of the bill payments. Heh. Yes, I could probably get another roommate, but I don't think I really want to get used to living with someone else, only to see him/her take off on me down the road, too. Besides, it'll be nice to have a bit more space in which to spread my stuff around, and never have to worry about the bathroom or the kitchen or the phone line being occupied. It's been a long time since I've lived alone, and while I'm feeling a bit low about myself and my life right now, maybe the loneliness will do me good.

The twelve-string has done me good, I think. I really love this guitar (which I've named Gina, by the way; sappy, I know, but...), and I've been playing it a lot lately, to the point where the fingertips of my right hand are very much calloused. "Christmas Lonely" was recorded using the twelve-string, and I think it's given the song a nice, full sound. I recently also got some new loops and instruments for GarageBand and the Ozonic (the sleigh bells on "Christmas Lonely" came from there), and I'm hoping to finish the "Hate Theme from 'Waiting for X'" before the year is over, and maybe another track or two.

Apparently, no one I know is using Google Talk. But if you are, do feel free to add rockstarandy to your list. I log on every once in a while, to see if anyone's there. I've been spending a bit more time on MySpace lately, and bumped into some old friends, as well as making some new ones. Jill Zutty is a talented singer/songwriter in the Princeton area, and we've talked about the possibility of working on some music together. Angella Ashton is an interesting young actress and model in New York. And Joe Havasy is, well, not the Joe Havasy from Clifton that Jon and I know, but a painter and illustrator in Athens, GA who came across his name on my overlooked Most Wanted Terrorists list. Hmmm, I don't think the feds have caught a single one of 'em yet... Speaking of which, what's the deal with the US claiming, in response to the uproar over alleged secret prisons overseas, that we've not violated "US law?" There is such a thing as international law. Maybe the Bushies should just pull out of the United Nations, disavow any and all international agreements onto which the United States has signed, and enact a strict isolationist policy. After all, the US is the only superpower in the world, and we can do whatever we want, and we don't need anybody else, right? "We don't have to play by your rules, man." How old are these kids again?

If you tire of playing by Microsoft's rules, then download Firefox if you haven't already done so. I generally use Safari on the PowerBook, but I keep Firefox (and Mozilla, and Opera, and Konqueror) around, too; on the PeeCee end of things, though, I definitely prefer Firefox. If you're going to insist on IE, then don't complain about viruses and spyware...

I met my nephew, Shawn, last month. My parents and I went to the christening, and my sister and her family came to my parents' for Thanksgiving. He is a cute lil' kid, though he seemed much more interested in his bottle than in my guitar. Ah, well, I guess there's plenty of time for that.

Well, back to work. The office has been rough enough for the past few weeks with Mahjabeen here; I shudder to think what next week will be like, without her. Anyone want to do technical support for NDCHealth products?
  - A (webmaster@andersensilva.com)


June 2006 - "Desperation," concerts, where's my music been?
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May 2006 - Nothing too exciting for Cinco de Mayo, fresh blood at Microwize, Apple v. Apple
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April 2006 - Late night at the office, a trip to DC
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March 2006 - Aimee Mann, fillin' up the iPod, science fiction, a trigger-happy veep?
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January 2006 - In the paper again, my own iPod, on my own
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December 2005 - Where is everybody?!? "Christmas Lonely"
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November 2005 - Arizona, the Palisades Center, alone again... naturally
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October 2005 - 35 and still alive, an Ovation and not a Tanglewood, anyone for tennis?
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September 2005 - The city of New Orleans, Rome, CBGB, let's joust!
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August 2005 - Microsoft Winblows, no Transit Village for you!, songs 'n guitars
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July 2005 - The Fourth, the Ozonic, "The Lion, the Witch, and the Wardrobe"
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June 2005 - Lunch with Gina, a penguin from her penguin, hongry for Nine Inch Nails, "Episode III" and "Hitchhiker's"
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May 2005 - My new PowerBook, HHGttG, the end of the Astronomy Tip of the Day
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April 2005 - The Children's Museum, the Philadelphia Museum of Art, the Dark Tower, the Dell
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March 2005 - Snow, my sushi valentine, technical difficulties (please stand by)
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February 2005 - It's BSD, it's dynamite! the Dalai Lama, Zhao Ziyang, fruit with "Raymond"
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January 2005 - A frightening New Year's, spaghetti and meatballs (and Christmas gifts!) with Gina and Hannah, Samichlaus
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December 2004 - A fun evening with Gina and Hannah, test-taking, partaking of the library
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November 2004 - A lot can change in twelve months
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October 2004 - My birthday and my honey
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September 2004 - Anniversary, spreadin' the word about the CD, dumb E-mails and the women who send them
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August 2004 - Philadelphia freedom, the album is finished, where did my parents go?
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July 2004 - Together again!; playin' guitar in the park, promoting the album
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June 2004 - Mother's Day, Gina's day, preparing the CD... don't dream it's over. Please don't
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May 2004 - Gina being so far away from me, chicken cordon bleu, Macintosh consulting, the album
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April 2004 - No more Vitriol, lovin' and cookin' for my pretty baby, upgrading to a Treo 600, working on my music
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